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MilesPerGallon's avatar

Thank you for this. One of my favorite things about your writing is your willingness to explain publicly how your personal life and history inform your political beliefs. Too many writers are coy about it, or perhaps aren't clear or honest enough thinkers to write about it in such a straightforward manner.

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Thanks for sharing this, man. Like everyone else, I also found it really moving. It resonated with me because I recently went through kind of a similar experience. On a trip with my dad recently, he explained to me that my grandmother's extended family was exterminated when the Nazis took Rostov-on-Don in 1942. My grandmother, who was a medical administrator for the Soviet railroad, whose husband was killed in the Nazi advance on Ukraine, and who was in Moscow when the Nazis were advancing on it and helped coordinate medical care for people coming to and from the front, was able to save her mother after the Nazis had to give up Rostov-on-Don, and have her moved to Kazakhstan. Everyone else ended up "in the ditch," as my father put it. When I got home, I found an article in an journal of Holocaust studies about what had happened there, but I found it kind of hard to connect, the numbers were just too overwhelming; though learning that this was before the camps, in the "machine guns and gas vans" phase of things was very queasy. My grandmother, who I knew as a really kind and gentle and overall very happy person considering all that she'd lived through, never really talked about any of this stuff, and I had this weird feeling that, because she'd been lifted out of shtetl life by the Soviet Union, our whole branch of the family had been "pulled into the groove of history" (a phrase from Ellison's Invisible Man I think about a lot) where as these people had been, well, tossed into its ditch, and that there was no bridging the gulf.

Some time ago, when I was travelling to Germany a lot more for academic stuff, I was kind of toying with the idea of applying for Latvian citzenship, so I could work and travel freely. I was born in Riga, and my family left as Jewish refugees to America. This was kind of a non-starter from the beginning, since I would have had to pass a test in Latvian, which I don't speak and is incredibly hard to learn, but my father was vehemently against it, since he felt like Latvian nationalism dovetailed in a really big way with any anti-Semitism, with everyone dismissing tales of concentration camps as "Soviet propganda." (Of course, this is the history Putin is exploiting now.) The whole experience, that sense of not really belonging anywhere, or being from a place that no longer existed, really kind of impacted the way I think about American identity politics, which tends to sentimentalize the oppressed in a way that doesn't really work, to say the least, in the Soviet sphere. But it did make me feel, like you expressed here, that the project of European integration, is a worthy one.

Anyway, congratulations, and thanks for sharing all this. Just wanted to add my voice to express how much it moved me.

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